Tnadoori Chicken.....

It even sounds yummy. Well just tried my hand at it yesterday. Wonder when I will get that color.Actually went through Sanjeev Kapoor's recipe. Recipe was amazing though it turned out a little different, ok may be a lot different. Didn't have a chance to taste one of his Tandoori Chicken.

It was also my debut at skinning the chicken. Aw its bad, it took me so long for that alone. Loved the part of marinating it though. Was simple and tasted good. I have read about marinating before but never found much tempting recipe until yesterday. What can I say, I am just a huge fan of Sanjeev Kapoor's recipes. You should definitely go for it and trust me you wont regret it.

If you feel too lazy to do yourself and by any chance you live in Dallas, I would suggest few good places to try. I don't consider myself a gourmet but I do have preferences when it comes to food, especially chicken. I just remember two of them: India West (must try) and Masala Wok (I know many wont like but tandoori chicken, a starter is really good). Roasted chicken fans can go for La Madeline, Fadi's and Ali Baba. Ah already feeling hungry too much of chicken talk and many places to explore yet.

Complicated heart

Well it has been pretty long since I wrote anything, guess life has been busy, didn’t even realize. I am a rather bad analyzer but I thought of pouring my thoughts in the blog so I would understand them better. I believe every person is different and so am I. Before everyone gets me wrong let me explain. It’s not about complicated heart but more about complicated mind and thoughts. I thought it would be a good title after MLTR complicated heart :).

I wonder why my thoughts contradict with each other. One moment I feel positive and the next moment my mind wanders away searching for the negative side. People who are actually close to me consider me a good person and of course I am :). I mean I am not a person who would plan to hurt someone or who would purposely wish anyone harm. But I do have conflicting thoughts about people who are not compatible with me or much rather opposite wavelength than mine. It so happened recently that I was a part of a heated argument. And I was truly against a person, a role which I always shy away from. Losing my temper isn’t in me but I ended up shouting in the argument.

But I couldn’t help then. So I thought of letting it go. I am pretty good at ignoring such things but sometimes it sticks to your mind like glue, you just can’t get rid of it. And that’s what happened. Again this wasn’t an issue; the problem was of mixed emotions. Because I know that person, I know why he or she acted like that and part of my mind was ready to forgive / forget everything. To give him / her opportunity to grow out of their mistakes but somewhere this cruel little thought crept out of my mind. To let that the person suffer and make him / her realize that they were at fault. I follow a simple rule: if I can help a person realize their mistake without them facing the repercussions then I will go for it. I prefer people not following the mistakes I did or I have seen others doing.

I hate the dilemma thing. I know I don’t want the person to suffer but sometimes you should let them fall in order to make them realize. Every time I think about this I judge myself and find myself guilty. Guilty of not doing the right thing, guilty of not being ideal. I know many might consider this petty thing to even think about. So, I have a complicated mind. I am planning to help myself out of it by developing a more positive attitude and improving myself in forgiving others. Oh god does it indicate I need to go for an art of living course. Hmmm, well I am not a spiritual person and I definitely can’t keep quiet for a day. Nothing against people who believe in it but guess it’s not for me. My friends already complain I talk less and I don’t want to give them another reason. So then I will find a way to reach this “ideal myself” in my own pace and way… ha ha complicated me.

lets change....

How many times and how many people have asked me to change, I know I don’t even want to count. But I never really thought about it, I never felt the urge to change myself. Maybe I was waiting for me to really want to change. I had a huge argument with my friends the other day and one of my friends kept insisting that you should expand your horizons and try everything that you are exposed to and believe that you can do anything you decide to. Well I definitely believe that, I can do anything I decide to but I need some motivation on personal front. I need to want it and not forced because of any other reason. I tried to explain him but I guess my thoughts weren’t channelized properly for me to express them.

Now I think I can explain him. As a matter of fact I am a very quiet person. I don’t usually get into arguments and even if I do get I don’t place my argument assertively. I accept it that I am not an aggressive person. And that people need to be in this world. Because of my nature of times it happened that I was not recognized for the work I did. It did hurt but I never bothered, because I love myself and I treasured my personality. I think too much of what or how others will feel if I tend to cross them. Of course in that process I am at loss, well if not always then most of the times. But what can I do, people don’t know but I am quite of a rebel inside. Whenever anyone tells me or rather sort of orders me to do a thing I feel the urge to do exactly the opposite. Well I guess one might consider it childish but never the less it is part of what I am.

But apart from these traits I never to anything I don’t want to. And that’s the reason I never thought of coming out of my shell, oh yes I am a typical Cancerian and I have to tell you shell is the coziest place for us :) . Let’s get at the crux of the situation - why now suddenly think of changing myself? Because now I want to. Well it took a long time for me to come to this point. And I definitely owe those who expected me change , to explain this. I will consider myself pretty fortunate to have worked with Mike Hall. Yes he is by far and I think will be in future the best manager I have ever worked with. I had this small talk with him and guess what it did make me want to change. It was like that, 70 min dialogue from chak de, which made me realize or rather made me want to change. One might wonder why so much want to stuff. But that’s what I want to tell, I always knew that I need to talk more need to express more and be more aggressive but I never wanted to. And now I want to.

I hope sathish will understand it :) . I want to get out of my shell and tell the world, hey I can do it. Well I always did it and found it annoying to let others know that I did it. But well if that’s the to make yourself noticed then so be it . Uh it will take lot of effort but I will do my best. So lets ride on the wave of change.

Think Beyond.. think better

What is it with Marathi Manoos? Why does a person need to belong to a particular religion, caste, state or even a country? Well I can understand it will be a nightmare to remove the country boundaries but then at least people shouldn’t discriminate within their own country. We can at least make an effort to live harmoniously in our home country. But no, there are enough fools around who just can’t get this into their so called brains. I guess there is a serious need to teach civics right from scratch to all Indians. They keep forgetting the fundamental right to freedom of any citizen of India. It clearly states you have a freedom to freely move across India, settle anywhere in India and of course take up any occupation anywhere in India.

Back to Marathi manoos. Why is it so difficult to put efforts to get a job? Why do people need a preference? Oh come on if you expect to get everything because you were born in a region which was luckily developed, by British for their own needs, without any efforts then… well what should I say, you are sick. Let me tell you life is never easy. Even I am a Maharashtrian and I hate it when people crib that their jobs are being taken away. Why is it that people like to sound miserable and that they really can’t stand on their own? I believe anybody who has the will to live will survive and similarly if you really want to get something then you will strive to get it. Isn’t there a saying, “If you decide to do something then the entire universe will conspire for you to achieve it” and yes it is true. If we sit and crib that we aren’t getting a job then definitely we won’t. But instead if we actually go through the pain of deserving it then we will definitely have it.

Since school I have been with people from different regions, speaking different languages but I never found that they conspire for you to loose or just that they like to pull you down. No this is something which these politicians do. At the base level people really live harmoniously. Just for some bunch of votes why to destroy this harmony. And why do people get influenced, god has given you a brain for a reason and not to dumbly follow a person. Every day in school we take a pledge not to discriminate on any basis but how easily we forget it. I wish there will be day when people realize that it’s not their language/ religion/ caste / state that’s helps them prosper / makes them happy, it’s the bond we have with each other, it’s the love we share with each other that makes us happy. A single person, similarly a single community can never excel at everything, it is knowledge that we share across the communities (or shall we say just humans) helps us grow. Remember united we stand divided we fall. Make an effort to come together not to fall apart. Whatever I have expressed doesn’t stand for a single state but I wish everyone across our country realizes this so we can finally have a chance to prosper.

Its always the small things that matter

Isn't it true ? So very true. Whenever we strive to get anything, it always helps if we ponder upon every tiny detail it entails. At least being a software engineer, I have learned a lesson that it really does. Just the other day I was working so hard to get a thing done. Precisely I wanted to draw a string on a windows mobile form in C# using the measurestring function to calculate the length. Too technical, not actually but I need to show off what I am doing after all it suits my profession ;) . Trust me after doing a good enough research on Google I was so confident that it will just be a matter of few hours, I mean hardly an hour. Of course keeping a margin in case things aren't what they seem.

As usual, I was stuck and kept saying all izz well. But for eight hours, even google didn't have mercy on me. I knew right from the moment I got stuck that it's going to be a silly silly thing. And it was, a stupid new line character! Why doesn't MSDN ever document such things. Well nothing against them they have some pretty good stuff there. Then I thought forget it, it's done just move on.

Actually, I kept thinking how the small things matter in our life. We are so engrossed in our routine that we miss out enjoying little things like having a cup of tea with your friends in your patio or just going out for a walk after dinner or well I don't know anything that doesn't require any effort on your part. But we just don't do it coz we are so bogged down with our worries that we forget to live in every moment. Ah, I think I am going off track. But anyways, what I think is we need to appreciate these things, which make us happy. Of course, I do hope that I will follow this. You know it's easy to say. Because I guess, I am too lazy. Still being a hardcore tea lover, I will at least look forward to enjoy tea with my roommates, if not in patio then in the hall, as long as the tea is good place really won't matter.

My first take at writing a blog....

Oh finally I am done with creating a blog. I wonder how many people are there on blogspot, it took me so long to get a url. But yes here I am. And now come to think of it, I really don't know what to write. This is the first time I have ever attempted to write a blog and I really really wish to write at least something, I mean come on there were so many things I thought about. where are they ? Nothing new though, I always see myself in this state ever confused about what to say and how to express. And that is the motivation behind me writing a blog.

I have always believed I express myself better through writing, well at least until now and truly speaking I definitely need to get hold of the people who thought such of me and encouraged me. But don't worry guys I wont let you down :) pehla to trial consider karte hai....

Oh how i miss those days... while playing cricket. Always been a bad batsmen, bowled on the first ball... but since I was a kaccha limbu, the first ball was always a trial ball...

Actually I was bored of my routine and thought of trying something new... this definitely is too far new for me. I don't know how regularly i will write but since I am in high spirits of writing a blog I hope of continuing...

Enough for today, it actually scrolled down :)